Boys Boys Boys

So I still haven't even told either of you much about this guy situation. Basically it came out of no where. Since this is not the first time I've dealt with such an out of the blue romance craziness, I'm gonna sum up my experiences as of late.

Seriously, what do guys think they are? They don't realize how much power they possess and I don't mean over women like keeping us down or in control or whatever, I mean the power they contain to bring joy and happiness into our lives (and yeah sadness or more commonly frustration) in just a moment. Cause truly like Hitch said, "No woman wakes up saying 'God, I hope I don't get swept off my feet today!'" I mean truth there are times that trying to add in a partner is waay more difficult (i.e. right now for me) but even still, we want someone to come along that is worth the risk, our time, and the challenges that will inevitably occur.

I have no idea how this whole finding a guy thing works. At all. It just seems that recently men have been falling into my lap. Now my insecurities would say, o this is just total luck and I have no control over what is happening. Yeah, I'm probably kidding myself there. I know I control a lot more of my life than I want to admit to. I have finally become whole by myself. I love myself for who I am. Realizing I am not perfect but being willing to strive to be a better person. Not that you can be in a relationship and be uber insecure and have it work out, but its going to be difficult. That's why dating in high school and such is such a joke sometimes. How can you figure out how to be with someone else when you barely know who you are and what you want.

Moving along, boys will pop up out of no where. You are a beautiful, smart, kind girl. They will find you. It might take a while, usually that's cause they understand they are not worthy of you or are intimidated. Yeah, its annoying, cause you'd rather they try and be able to weed through them yourself, but probably not going to work that way. Then when they do start pursuing you it seems so unexpected. Like you've been this pretty awesome girl for quite a while now… why just now are all these males realizing this, and how am I suppose to manage? Who are the guys worth friending, who should you politely run away from, who just want your body, and who wants your heart? Better yet, who is worthy of having a part of your heart?

I just threw a bunch of questions at you. I wish I had the answers to them. It would make my life a whole lot easier for sure. That's the hard/fun/scary/exciting part about romance. You are literally walking in blind to every situation. Even if you've been in serious relationships in the past, each one is different from the last and you have to figure them out. It's intriguing to work at figuring someone out so intently. I am sure there will be more on this topic as the year progresses but I needed to create a base. Haha Perhaps this is also for me and my mind. It is so cluttered with boy thoughts. Which is good and unfortunate. Anyway, trust in yourself and know that any guy would be so lucky to have you. If the guy you want to be with doesn't realize that, then maybe you should rethink why you want him to begin with. You deserve to be adored.